For the past 16 years of my existence here in the surface, I had experienced many things that could weaken and strengthen me. Weaken in terms of losting willingness to live. I just lurk in my room and never come out to face the sunshine. It was really hard and i couldn't imagine that I passed and conquered that. It was like, being with the people you don't know but the truth is your just with the people whom you share everything including your dreams. I felt so alone, I felt like dieing. One time I even wanted to cut my pulse to end my boring life in this rotten and worldly surface. BORING! Same thing everyday sucks! No choice eh.


My life way back then was a mess, until there is this one man who changed my perspective in life. Who taught me how to love and to be loved, how to smile even if your hurting inside. Who taught me that the world is not that cruel to end your borrowed life. It's good that you have someone who can make you smile in the middle of crying, who can crack jokes even if his hurting, who can make your heart jump whenever his around. I learned many things including lying to the people i cared most.


But ika nga nothing in this world is permanent. Everything comes and go. Hindi ko nlang namalayan na our story is already fading, na our story is starting its end. When i realized that 'us' is gone i don't have the courage to save 'us', i just let it slip on my hands. And just with a blink of an eye, 'us' faded from the screen. I died again that time. But maybe i'm so lucky that the doors of hell is closed. Few important people pulled me from the dirt and told me that its not the end of everything. They helped me fix myself and showed me the life i had thrown away. :)


It is really good to have you guys around.:) THANK YOU :)

My dark side.... care to share yours? :)